You are the company you keep

I'm the type of person to believe that the people you associate with and keep around you are an extension of you as a person. Personally, I try to keep good natured, motivated, well rounded people in my circle. There's nothing better, in my opinion, than supporting your friends and having them support you. I was just thinking about this because a good friend of mine, Martese, won the Nordstrom Scholarship along with five other people out of 7,100 candidates. That's crazy! I don't know much about the Nordstrom Scholarship, but I know that he really deserves it. So shout outs to him because people like him motivate me to be raw at life as well. He's not the only friend that motivates me like this, but this post is especially for him.

Congrats Boogie, hard work truly pays off.
:)

Talia & Rielle. Best friends until the world blows, legit.

Growing up

I got my driver's license yesterday ^_^ even though my signature looks like a 3rd graders (lol) I'm really growing up. I think this is caused me to be super nostalgic because I keep thinking about my childhood and everything/everyone I've encountered my in my almost seventeen years of living. It's crazy how the time is flying. I really need to cherish the time I have right now with the people I love because who knows what will happen in the future?

Summer 2010.

Really though

Has anyone ever had a day where everything is just going wrong wrong wrong? Well, I've had a series of these days starting on Friday. I'm losing everything and my head is all over the place. The slightest things are irritating me beyond belief right now, and I just need to blog really quickly and get some emotions out. Lord knows I don't want to say the wrong thing and have something pop off. It's 8:45pm and I haven't started any of my homework. That's how crazy everything is right now. I know I can pull through... I just need some vitamins and coffee.

Man, ever since school started things have been kind of crazy. After only the first week of my junior year I am swamped with homework. As far as my dance training is concerned... I have no idea at this point. I could potentially start taking ballet classes two times a week, I'm just too afraid to mess up my academics. Plus I plan on being social this year, it's just a lot to juggle and I need a little time to figure that out. With that being said I won't be on here as frequently but when everything smooths out, I'll be on here more. Luckily, this weekend I got a chance to chill with some really good friends of mine and also meet a few new people. Despite everything that's going on in my head and in my household, I'm just working on finding a way to be content. Well, until then...

First Day.

Tra-la-laaaaa! Today was my first day of junior year. Was I excited this morning? Kind of. Was I excited by the time I had to actually go to my first class? Not really. I'm trying really hard to keep this straight A mindset this year. I mean, it's junior year. Everyone knows this is the year that counts. College is approaching and I don't want to have to settle for a school, you know? I'm going to work hard this year because now in my mind, I don't have a choice. My classes aren't that bad to be honest. There are other teachers that I much rather would have liked to have, but I have to deal with what the system gave me. I need to prove myself to my parents. I don't want them to not have faith in me, or EXPECT me to fail. It's kind of hard to explain. I'll eventually get over every thing that I see wrong right now at school and get my gears all oiled up and grinding. I can't afford to mess this up. No one truly understands how critical this is to me, but me. That's okay though. My friends are there and they won't let me down. I won't let myself down. Junior year, LET'S GET IT!

Rest In Peace Rodney Kyles

I can't believe what is going on right now. I wake up this morning and check twitter (my usual routine) and I see everyone saying R.I.P. Rodney. Now I'm hoping this isn't the Rodney Kyles that I used to see like everyday at school. The one who I'm following on Tumblr. The one who is typically being RT'd into my timeline... but it is. Rodney was stabbed in the chest in Lincoln Park this morning at some party during a fight. This is just unreal to me. I need to get out of this city. I love Chicago with all my heart but the crime rate seems to be going no where but up. This is someone A LOT of my friends are close to. We're too young to have to bury our friends like this. It's not even like Rodney was the "not do anything" type of guy. Based off of his Tumblr, he knew what he wanted and he was making moves to get there. He just dropped a mixtape Less Passion, More Ration a couple weeks ago. I'm about to download it and put it on my ipod. I'm not sure if it's any good, but I'll keep it on there.

I need to leave this city. I need to get out. I can't deal with the crime that this city is just putting up with. People are getting killed left and right. Nothing is changing. I'm only about to be a junior in high school, I can't be here for two more years with the death rate climbing like it is. I have a little sister that is my everything. I don't want to worry about losing that little girl.

Life is too fucking short for the bullshit, and that's real. I'm tired of motherfuckers dying. Rest in peace Rodney. Your family and friends have my deepest condolences.