Happy Thanksgiving!

Unfortunate as it may sound, today is the first day I really sat down and thought about everything I'm grateful for instead of the negatives. It turns out, I'm thankful for so much--it's ridiculous.

I'm thankful for the people that live in this house. Even though my mom and I rarely get along, my little sister always uses my stuff, and my dad is the biggest drama king I know, I love them all. We don't always get along like we should, but when we do it's the best feeling in the world.

I'm thankful for my friends. I have no idea where I would be without the people I choose to surround myself with. I have such a unique set of friends that are all individuals in their own way. They push me and support me as well as get on my last nerve sometimes, but they're perfect for me. I don't know where I'd be without them.

I'm thankful for GnD. It always feels good to know that 9th period I'm going to be around some amazing dancers with amazing personalities just enjoying what we do. There's nothing like collaborating with people who love the same things I do.

I'm thankful for EDT + Sydni and Dorian. Who would've thought this simple idea of starting a crew back in June would have flourished into something this great? This new experience and new family that we've brought together has the potential to just be amazing. To Sydni and Dorian, we are seriously a really good trio for the job. I've created a new friendship with Sydni and rekindled a flickering friendship flame with Dorian. Dance seriously does bring people together, and I love it.

I'm just thankful to be here today. Sure, I'm always tired and injured and sore, but I'm here. I'm just trying to enjoy my life to the fullest and for once, I actually feel like I'm doing so. I'm so appreciative for the life I have. Thank you God, for everything you've blessed me with. So happy turkey day to everyone! You are loved.

Protect-IP is GARBAGE!

So I got home from school today, eager to get on Tumblr and see what has been posted. I logged on to see that everything on the site has been censored. Seriously? At the top of the screen, I saw a link to an explanation. Apparently Congress is trying to pass a law that can censor websites like Tumblr, Facebook, and Twitter. Here's a video I found further explaining the law.


PROTECT IP Act Breaks The Internet from Fight for the Future on Vimeo.


I think the bill is ridiculous! The internet plays too big of a role in society and the economy today to just decide to censor everything. People like me who run blogs and basically live on sites like Twitter and YouTube would be at a serious loss. I understand the entertainment industry wanting to find a way to get more money but this isn't going to do anything but anger any people. Plus we live in a very manipulative society with a government that will take advantage of their power. If we give them this inch, they'll try and take a mile and probably succeed.

I encourage everyone to sign this petition and send an email to their representatives. This is nonsense and it must be stopped now.

Same ol' sh*t.

School. I'm not going to say that I hate getting an education, but I don't like how it's being done. As Americans we are taught that we need to go to school and get good grades so we can get good jobs and live comfortably. Until this year, I never really objected it. Waking up everyday and sitting in a building for hours was something that I had to do. In actuality, it's kind of stupid.

In the American school system, everything is essentially about making the grade. It is as if we have to prove ourselves to society in order to be successful in life. I'm stressing myself about a score on a standardized test that is a big deciding factor in whether I'm good enough to get into a certain school. I'm stressing myself about getting the best grades because I've screwed something up every single year until now--colleges won't accept me with bad grades. My one fear about my near future is ending up having to settle for a school because I wasn't "good enough."

I find myself thinking about my yearning to just live my life. I don't and I can't apply everything I learn in school to my daily life. To be quite honest, I don't remember a lot of what I "learn" in school. I'm not sure if that's because of the way things were taught to me or if I just never bothered to really learn it. The two can go hand in hand. I'd rather just go out and enjoy life. School can make life pretty miserable sometimes, not all. Then again, everyone is different.

I eventually get overwhelmed with my resent toward going to my high school every single day. It's not a bad school. It is actually one of the best public high schools in the city of Chicago. I still hate going. Learning about something I'm passionate about seems as if it would be a lot more productive. I completely understand learning the basics but somethings are just unnecessary. That's what is so intriguing to me about college. Aside from the freedoms, I get to chose what I want to learn about. Nothing is more motivating that being eager to learn about something in particular. I'm so ready for that experience.

Until then however, I'm stuck in the bowels of the public school system. Just trying to get by and make it to that next stage. Oh, college.

Go Stupidddd

This is from my birthday/homecoming pep rally. Yeah, we got off. I start in the front all the way to the left. (I choreographed the fourth dance to Ladies Love Me and the last dance to XR2) ^_^

Speak your mind

For me personally, speaking my mind is very difficult for me when I'm vulnerable. In other cases I always feel as if I have a valid opinion and can argue my case as much as I want.

Sometimes I'm really good with words. When someone asks me for advice, I'm really good with offering good insight and telling someone what they need to hear. When it's my thoughts and my feelings I need to get across to someone on my own, however, I need to go over it in my head billions of times to make sure they get my point. I don't want to say that wrong thing and have a person get the wrong idea.

One thing I absolutely hate is getting treated. Like seriously treated. Sometimes I'm so afraid of someone's reaction that I just keep everything I really want to say inside because I don't want to know their answer.

That's where I go wrong.

I need to practice just saying what I have to say. My opinion is valid, and beating around the bush is too annoying and confusing to want to continue a conversation. I can't be afraid of the truth. Not anymore.

Starting tonight.

Once I Had A Woman

For any of those who are interested, this is my dance team Guys N Dolls (GnD) at Dance Chicago 2011. I'm in the last trio to go on the right side of the screen. We snapped. I looked weak at the end :/ but overall we did really well. We also pulled off getting to homecoming 30 minutes later. Determination.

Shout outs to Joe from Elements contemporary ballet company. Thank you so much for choosing us for this amazing piece.