My body tells me no, but I won't quit... 'CUS I WANT LOVE!

My Body - Young The Giant. <3

For those who enjoy smiling.

I'm sure everyone knows the 2011 VMAs aired last night. Even though I didn't watch the entire show, what I saw was pretty mediocre. One of my favorite performances however, turned out to be Beyonce singing Love On Top. Earlier in the show, Beyonce did announce that she was indeed pregnant. I'm so happy for her and Jay-Z! ^_^ Here's my thing with Beyonce, I typically love her music and watching her performance, but I'm not one of those Beyonce hypes. When this song started, I thought this performance was about to be boring, but it turned into one of my favorite performances of the night. It was simple and classy. I loved the outfits, the choreography, and her backup singers. The end however, almost brought me to tears. She dropped the mic, and opened her jacket to show off her baby bump. Then the camera showed the happiest Jay-Z and the giddy Kanye West laughing and smiling. It was the cutest moment. I love Jay-Z and Bey (and Kanye) haha. Here's a video for those who missed it. :) This performance made me fall in love with the song.

Work Out - J. Cole

Love this song. Love this video. Love J. Cole :)

The Dreaded "S" Word

I just got home from registration at school, meaning junior year is right around the corner. Am I excited? Depends on how you look at it. Everyone says that junior year is the hardest year of high school. At the same time however, it's really fun. I just hope that everything works out to make my junior experience a great one. As of right now, things aren't looking to good. My schedule is all jacked. Everything that I expected could go wrong, did. My last chances are either to get my schedule changed the first day of school, or have some really amazing people in all of my classes. Welp, here's a look at the schedule. :/

2nd: Anatomy & Physiology - Mr. Neris
3rd: AP Language & Comp - Ms. Floreani
4th: Study Hall
5th: Pre Calculus - Mr. Simmons
6th: Lunch
7th: United States History - Mr. Maher
8th: Art - Ms. Wax
9th: Dance Performance III (aka GnD) - Ms. Gordan


The more I look at the schedule, the less bad it looks. I'm still kind of upset I got Ms. Floreani, not Ms. Leki. I'm also a little bummed that a majority of my friends have 7th lunch. Last time I checked, Mr. Simmons was such a bad teacher, they wouldn't let him teach last year. Now that's my math class, I can't have somebody who fails all his students. I just can't.

I guess it wouldn't be so bad to leave my schedule how it is, I just hope there are some good people in my classes and my lunch period. *Sigh.

Now Playing | Justin Bieber - That Should Be Me

I really love this song, discovered it when I had a J.Biebs sesh a couple days ago (he's a featured artist on demand). I also enjoy Rascal Flatts, they have some other song I like... but I just can't remember it right now. Real talk - Justin Bieber is super talented. Yep, I'm a Belieber. ^_^ I'm glad he cut his "beaver pelt" as my dad called it. This hairstyle makes him look older. ;)

He's done it again. Canadian artist The Weeknd has just released his second mixtape, Thursday. I don't know about anyone else, but I always love the album artwork for his mixtapes. I'm almost finished with the tape and I was pretty pleased. I also enjoyed him featuring my other beloved Canadian artist, Drake on one of his tracks. I like The Weeknd's style. Do I like this one more than House Of Balloons? I'm not sure yet. Either way, they are both great and I advise that you listen to them. Yes, you.

Sensitivity.

Would I call myself a sensitive person? Maybe. I cry when I see other people cry, I can get an attitude quickly if you come off wrong, I can be emotionally damaging to myself. I guess I am sensitive. I'm okay with that, sort of. I know I can't change who I am. When people try to train themselves to not care about something or change their mentality to make a situation easier, I wonder if it works. I'm only sixteen (soon to be seventeen) but I think I go through a lot. Even though I've been through some things, I'm not one to shut people out. For example, when I was wronged by someone I loved the most, I didn't stop loving or trusting everyone else... even though I must admit I wanted to.

I guess that situation has carried through with me though subconsciously. I just wish for things to be simple, but everything is just all complicated in my eyes. Adele's album 21 is on repeat right now keeping me sane, but my brain keeps digging deeper and deeper into the issue at hand. Sometimes that smallest things can impact my entire mood and then I just make everything worse than it is. It's pretty draining.

As I'm listening to One & Only and doing small choreography in my chair, I got to thinking... why do I care so much? Why does this hurt me so much? I really suck at trying to verbalize my thoughts/feelings clearly. My mind moves so much faster than my mouth or my fingers. Basically, just for once, I want things to feel right in my life. As of right now... a lot of things just feel wrong.

Style is Art.

Let's talk about fashion.

and they say Chi City...

I'm a Chicago girl until I die. I love my city to death, and I love hearing about my city in music. When I listen to songs by Kanye especially, I just love knowing he's from when I'm from. Watch The Throne has been playing since I downloaded it, and one song really sticks out to be - Murder To Excellence. Kanye in Murder To Excellence >

The crime rate in my city is CRAZY high. Hearing about death, especially in the black community, isn't something shocking. It's so sad to here about people my friends were close to, losing someone they love. It's getting too close to home and it's just ridiculous. The fact that Ye acknowledged this is just... I'm not quite sure what words I want to use. I feel as if people from other cities don't understand how a Chicagoan feels listening to this song. It's just so relateable. I love when topics are real. I don't even know what to say...

When I was in 8th grade, my dance school's performing company put on a show called Generation Next which was dedicated to all the CPS students who had lost their lives in the past year. This is back in like March of 2009 and I remember it was maybe over 300 students that was named. My dad had to make a huge peace sign for the display and on it we wrote down each student's name and I remember still adding names up until show day. Which is crazy. We had the show at Percy Julian High School and I remember my dressing room was a class room that still had notes, pictures, and things like that dedicated to Blair Holt who was shot on a bus shielding his friend. People like him don't deserve to die so young.

It's sad to live in a city who's beauty is overcast by it's crime. This shit needs to stop, because Chicagoans have no reason to endure this type of pain.

I love Wiz Khalifa. Something about him is so attractive ^__^ My friend Turiya put me on this. Enjoy Wiz Khalifa's lil cute self.

If you need to laugh.

LMFAO. I love Kevin Hart.

Nellyville

Who remembers Dilemma by Nelly & Kelly Rowland? I do, I still jam to it when it comes on. I've just discovered Dilemma Part 2. It's called Gone, and I think it's SO CUTE. I loved Nelly & Kelly together. ^__^ the fact that he used a part of Dilemma in Gone is adorable. Just check em out. :)

This Is For You

Boy In Detention

I've finally felt like downloading Boy In Detention. Chris Brown is one of my favorite R&B artists, not rappers. I'm on track 17 out of 21, and it's alright. I think this mixtape is really long... that might be because I've been listening to music for like three hours straight. As of right now, almost everything sounds the same (minus the few songs that he's singing in, not rapping). Nonetheless, I love Chris. I still bump F.A.M.E. all the time. All music is up to interpretation, so you can develop your own opinion.

J.Cole - The Album Before The Album

One of my favorite artists, J.Cole has an album coming out sometime next month. I'm beyond excited! ^_^ Anyways, some people were talking about some possible new music by him so I decided to check it out. I don't think The Album Before The Album is an official mixtape dropped by J.Cole and a lot of the songs on here are favorites of mine already but you can check it out. :)

Download Mixtape | Free Mixtapes Provided by DatPiff.com

Check It | Watch The Throne

 

Check It. The highly anticipated album by the greats Jay-Z and Kanye West has finally released. I just finished listening to the whole thing and I loved it. It's nothing less than what I expected from Yeezy and Hov. I especially love the songs that Frank Ocean are featured in ^__^ shout outs to him for getting those features. That's raw. I encourage hip-hop fans to get this album. :)

Ladies Love Them

"Ladies love me, I'm on my Cool J." Everyone (that listens to the radio at least) should recognize these Chris Brown lyrics from his hit Look At Me Now. Lately, there's been a lot of buzz on Twitter and Facebook talking about how Justin Bieber killed Chris in another song called Ladies Love Me. I decided I'd go ahead and take a listen. I'm not a huge fan of this song, but I must admit, J. Bieber snapped ^__^ and I'm not only saying that because I'm a Belieber. These two both have talent, but in this song, in my opinion...
J.B. > C.B.

What happened to romance? Seriously, I know I'm only in high school but I'm sure it had to exist more than it does now. Maybe it's just me, but finding someone remotely close to feeling you on an emotional level is kind of rare. All people want to do it have sex. C'mon now, what are the romantics like me supposed to do? Sit around and be single until I leave for college? At this rate, I wouldn't be surprised if that ended up happening to me. Where are all the people that love doing sweet things for people just because they know it'd make them happy? I feel as if I watch too much television or something because teenage romance just doesn't seem real at this point.

Sometimes I feel as if I have to put in all the effort when it comes to guys. If I don't text them, we don't talk. I don't need that. I'd just appreciate being appreciated. Lately, I've been feeling a lack of appreciation. Not appreciating my time. Not appreciating my feelings. Not appreciating me. So, f*ck it. I'll just keep watching the movies.

Three cheers for the hopeless romantic.

Real Music.

J. Cole has been one of my favorites for a while now. He's a storyteller with his raps. His songs are real, just, nothing short of real. This song is so real. I'm not really good with my words today but it's a real story. This shit happens. I'm sitting here listening to it just like "...damn." I can't wait for his album to come out either.
Cole World: The Sideline Story - September 27th.

CRUNCKCOCO!

Who doesn't know who CRUNKCOCO is by now? He became famous after his hilarious video found on WSHH Who You Finna Try? I just watched this video and damn near DIED laughing. Oh my goodness. Here is CRUNKCOCO's cover of Super Bass by Nicki Minaj. ^_^

On Repeat | Thinkin' About You - Frank Ocean

This song has been on repeat since I first heard it last night. Frank Ocean's voice really just gets me mellowed out. This is one of those songs that people would think I listen to a lot because I'm going through something or I can relate to it. For once, that's not the case. I just think this song is something beautiful. Frank Ocean is slowly climbing up to one of my favs.

Oh Dancers

This is SUPER cool. Like, it's crazy. Not only were the dancers good, but the lady that choreographed the lights and stuff is brilliant. Enjoy!

Goodbye July, Hello August

Today is August 1st, and there are now 36 days until school starts. WHAT?! That's crazy. I have August to complete my bucket list as much as I can, see all my friends (especially those leaving for college), and get myself prepared for what is considered the hardest year of high school. I have a plan for how my junior year should go and honestly, I'm not that freaked out. I just need to stay focused. Until then however, I need to bond with my lovies because lord knows when school starts, my parents will try to keep me on LOCKDOWN. I turn 17 in less than three months. That's crazy too. I'm growing up so fast! :') haha. I'm going to need August to work with me though. It's my last chance.